How to Connect with your Inner Calm

  For years I was rushing around, trying to do everything but not really getting much done.  This led to me getting glandular feve...

 

For years I was rushing around, trying to do everything but not really getting much done.  This led to me getting glandular fever and was a very distressing and depressing time of my life. However, it forced me to re-evaluate everything. Values, beliefs, priorities and general life all came under the microscope. What made it more difficult was facing up to things that had been wrapped under the cloak of cognitive dissonance.  Blissfully ignorant by pushing things onto the back burner for years in favour of trying to lead a ‘happy life’, the life friends, family, media and myself had been telling me should be led.

 

After making some major upheavals and questioning whether it was the right thing to do, there was suddenly was an abundance of time to focus on  relaxation and reflection. This was one of the scariest things ever, being alone with your thoughts and doubting nearly every decision ever made is not an easy task.  However, one thing it did do was make me focus on what I actually wanted rather than what I didn’t have. There’s a big difference as well, what you want are ideals, what you have may be harsh realities. Realising that there was a huge disparity between what I wanted and what I had (also what I had thought I wanted for years) was one of the biggest disappointments I’d ever had to experience and it was a conscious choice to face up to it.  Tempting as it was to continue in denial, the disappointment was followed by some slow progress.  I signed up to a reiki course, learned how to do tarot cards, read and read about consciousness and the universal vibrational energy surrounding us and also found a new found love of writing poetry. It’s been fascinating, to consciously dream about what I want to do and then just doing it, no doubts, no worries and no fears.

 

Allowing yourself just a little bit of time to think about what interests you, what you want out of life and how you will get it pays huge dividends, and not the financial kind but the spiritual, healing kind.  Learning to allow yourself to feel the pain of disappoint has, in turn, allowed the strength to grow without fear of being judged by the same people I had tried so desperately to seek approval from.  It’s a beautiful journey that I will continue to travel with no real destination, just determination to grow and learn as I travel on the spiritual path.

 

Meeting new people who are traveling the same journey, albeit not always on the same path, has been one of the pleasurable unintended consequences.  Six months ago I couldn’t even go to a gym class alone, now I am taking courses and meeting amazing people. It can be a lonely journey at times but the rewards outweigh that temporary feeling.  I depend less and less on others and find if anything, they depend on me.  It’s nice to feel needed sometimes though isn’t it?

 

Being able to read the tarot was something I had tried to self teach for over four years with very little success, six hours of truly connecting with an amazing psychic has opened up a whole new world to me. Each step of the journey gives calming effects and a truer sense of inner peace. There is no destination, so the journey will be ongoing but it’s so enjoyable that you won’t want it to end.

 

Stay safe on your journey though, it can lead you to some dark places and can put temptation in your way to the point of blocking your path.  Steer well and always check your map of goals to make sure you are heading where you want to go and I promise it will be worth it.